Keene State Invite
disclaimer: sorry for the angry tirade.
ok keene state today, 8k (5 miles), of pure terribleness. goal going into the race was to break 27 but because of the shitty condition of the course (really sloppy and like a 15 foot puddle over ankle deep) I knew that the time probably wasn't gonna happen. First mile was ok and I sort of lost touch with the main pack of dartmouth runners because I didn't want to go out too fast. too bad i hit the mile in 5:12 which pissed the shit out of me because i wasn't feeling as good as i would have liked and i wanted to hold the rest of the miles in the 5:20s. went through 4k (2.5) in 13:46, hit 3 miles in 16:46 and by this point i was really depressed because i knew i wasn't going to run well, i was far back and not feeling that great. did my classic de-kick at the end of crappy races until this bastard with a goofy ponytail passed me and i was like, is this kid serious? so i went with him and then mike lynch on my team passed me so i went with him. we ended up having a kicking duel which ended with me beating him in 28:23; worst time ever. i really feel like i'm in good shape in terms of just general running and fartleks and what not but really don't feel like i'm in solid 8k racing shape. maybe i'm just a huge pussy and can't sack up for cross races but i am seriously pissed off. it's just been too long since i've run well and i'm sick of running slowly and being depressed. i thought this was going to be a breakout year for me but it seems like i'm just going through the motions of last year's shittyness. maybe i just need to give it time for things to click. as of now i am confused and depressed so i'm going to have a talk with barry on monday.
-warmed up 3, raced 5, warmed down 3, 11 on the day, 50 in 6 days so far.
note: we won this meet easily with our jv team and our varsity team won a big invite in maine today. it's tough to train with and workout with guys who are racing so well when it seems like i'm the only one not doing so.